nobody tells me nothing!

Sometimes I wonder if the reason why Marshal Ney was so stupendously ineffective at Waterloo despite having a brilliant, almost meteoric career of successes prior to that might be because he didn't have the right piece of information in time for it to make a difference.

Now, I don't intend to compare myself with Michel Ney. Any successes I have had pale by comparison and my decisions are nowhere near the same caliber. No one will ever die as a result of a bad decision of mine. Yet, I think I must know something of how he felt.

If I'd had all of the information I needed, I'd not be digging myself, my team, and my project out of the mud right now.

Worse, it's not as if I made a bad assumption. I was misled.

This company sucks.

free money!

One of the perks of my new position is the ability to originate bonuses for people, even people that don't work directly for me.

So, I did. I just flooded (well, tinkled in) the wallets of a bunch of deserving people, about half of whom don't work for me.

Yay! Free money!

Too bad I can't give myself a bonus..

hubris

Lords of Kobol, save me!

Yesterday, I was King of the Cube: unstoppable, unbeatable, a veritable god amongst men.

Today... the open-mouthed-eater is back from his customer visit and I am once again going batcrap nutzo.

Oh well, at least I have Thriller to keep me distracted.

Yes, I like some old-school Michael Jackson.

I am all powerful

Not since the days of early Ultima Online, when I was known as The Dread Lord Baal or The Great Lord Tevyar (depending on my personality for that day) have I had so much power.

And no, before you begin to think so, this is not another post about EVE Online.

I work for a network security company. I'm an engineering manager. I've been 'acting' as a manager for quite a long time now, but didn't hold the title, which means that there was always a way to end-run around any of my proclamations.

Well, NO MORE!

For better or for worse, the buck stops with me now, and if I'm not happy, you're not getting your way.

Fuck 'em. Let them throw me out if they don't like it.

save me!

So... I was going to do a big rant about information leaking and how no one can keep their mouth shut, but that would be fruitless..

Someone either figured it out or let something loose and the company I work for has figured out that I'm looking to leave and they're trying to figure out how to save me.

I think they even know that I'm traveling to Iceland soon and the purpose of the visit, but they're not yet to the point of denying my travel, which is probably because they're afraid I'll just quit outright if they do, and they might be right.

However, today they began the effort to 'save me'. Last week one of the other managers here put in her notice. That created a void, and now there's an opportunity to do a whole new round of reorganizing. There's a place and a need for me in this new hierarchy, I'm told. Just sit tight and "don't do anything stupid" and I'll find out what it is soon.

I can't say that I'm really going to hold my breath.